Tuesday 11/30/2010

Well today is my first official day on the new WW plan and I think I like it so far. The one thing that is REALLY bothering me about it is the change in pts for milk!  We drink 1% around here and it has gone from 2pts to 3pts. I drink 2 glasses of milk every day so that is 6 pts of milk out of my 29. That seems like a lot to me. Hmmm...

Breakfast
english muffin - 3pts
1 oz ww cream cheese - 2pts
8 oz 1% milk - 3pts
1/2 c unsweetened apple sauce - 0pts

Lunch
1/2 c peaches in water - 1pt
1 c cooked canned carrots - 0pts
2 small clementines - 0pts
8 0z 1% milk - 3pts
Smart Ones Tuna Noodle Caserole - 6pts

Dinner
1/2 c risotto w/ roasted veggies - 6pts
water

Snacks
100 calorie bag of popcorn - 3pts
12 oz coke zero - 0pts
2 slices beef bologna - 5pts

Exercise
WATP 2 mile - 30 mins - 2 activity pts

Monday 11/29/2010

Breakfast
Life Cereal Bar - 4pts

Lunch
3/4 c mac and cheese  - 8pts
1 small apple - 0pts
1/4 c peas - 1pt

Dinner
large baked potato - 5pts
1 c salsa - 0pts
1/4 c shredded cheese - 2pts
1 c milk - 3 pts

Snacks
2 1/4 oz cheese - 6pts
12 oz coke zero - 0pts

Exercise
None...  :(

Current Weight: Week Seventeen

163.0 (-2.6)

WOO HOOO! That's a total of 15lbs GONE!!!! I am sooooooooo happy! I really needed this week to give me a boost! Also I got to learn the new program some and I am looking forward to getting to know it better!!! It looks like its going to be a good program, but take some getting used to for sure.

Friend Makin' Monday: Thanksgiving Recap

To join in on FMM, head over to Kenz blog and link up!

THANKSGIVING RECAP

Thanksgiving was pretty good this year.  Did the same ol' routine - lunch at the in-laws and dessert at my parents.  Sunshine looked adorable of course:

She sat at the big kids table with all her cousins and ATE! WOO HOO! She has NEVER partaken in eating the traditional foods on Thanksgiving before! I was so proud of her!

I did really well eating at the in-laws too! Took a TON of veggies and stayed away from the starchy stuff, like mashed potatoes and bread.  Had only a little cookie for dessert there.  Once at my parents we snacked on cheese and crackers and then had a slice pf pie.  At home I nibbled on a few crackers and cheese and that was ALL!  I am hoping that I see results in my WI tonight.

Sunday 11/28/2010

I think I need some accountability each day and I think if I am BRUTALLY honest here on my blog about my day to day eating and exercise I will be more real with myself.  So here ya go...

Breakfast
1 oz banana bread w/out nuts - 5pts
water

Lunch
7 oz sweet potato, baked - 3pts
1 c turkey chilli w/out beans - 3pts
1 can coke zero

Dinner
1/3 of Fire Roasted Vegetable Risotto (no idea on the pts of this as it was date night for DH and I)
house salad
1 bread stick
diet coke

Snacks
cup of coffee w/ splenda and 1/4 c of milk - 1pt

Exercise
2 mile WATP dvd - earned 2 activity pts

Motivation: How do I find it?

Yep like I said in my last post, I really need to makes some serious changes. It has gotten my wheels turning (do you smell the smoke?) and I am doing some soul searching.  I have completely lost my motivation to lose weight. Over the summer I was doing so well; running 3 or 4 days a week and journaling every little bit of food I put in my mouth, even if it was a taste of something as I was cooking.  I was also making a menu and knowing day to day what I was going to eat.  It all comes down to planning and motivation.  Good ol' P&M!

Now here I am several months later and have lost the want to do ANY of it and it just depresses me. I was so much happier then when I was on a schedule and had a good routine going.  There are so many things I could blame it all on, but they are all just excuses!  My favorite one is I just don't have the time. What a bunch of BS that is!  I am lucky to live less then 5 minutes from my job and don't have to be in until 8 each morning. I have plenty of time to get up in the morning and go for a walk or get on the elliptical machine that is just collecting dust.  I have plenty of time of Saturdays and Sundays to get off my fat a*s.

I have the support of my husband which is wonderful, but yet it doesn't seem like it is enough.  My mum goes with me to WW each Monday night and is going through this journey with me.  We both started on the SAME day and she has lost 28.4 lbs compared to my measly 12.4 lbs.  What's the difference?  She stays true to the program and exercises EVERY fricken' day, sometimes 2x a day.

So, what's my problem?  I really do not know. Why am I so unmotivated?  Could it be that I have tried for over 10 years to lose this dang blasted weight to no success?  Sure, I have lost weight in the past, but NEVER all of it.  I have NEVER succeed to my ultimate goal.  I don't feel like I have any fight left in me to do what it takes.  I always start things and NEVER finish them; not just in this aspect of my life, either.  Why is that?  What is wrong with me? I really do want to be healthy. I want to be thin, but I have just grown complacent and gotten comfortable.  I don't believe that I can do it.  I really need to dig deep and figure out what its going to take to make this a reality.  I know all the tools; set small goals, plan, take it one day at a time, re-framing, etc, etc.  I think there are so many things about myself that I dislike that I just can't get a handle on it and need to focus on one thing at a time, but I get side tracked.  My life is so cluttered, both with physical things as well as emotional stuff that I feel like I don't know where to begin.  I guess I need to try to pick just ONE area and focus on that.

Right now, at this moment in time, on Saturday November 27, 2010 at 6:55 PM, I am making a commitment to myself to do what I have to do to get this weight off.  I am WORTH it, damn it!

Be mindful and don't suffer!

I think I need to make this my mantra. I need to make some serious changes in my life in the next few months or I am going to be forced to make other changes that I REALLY do not want to make.  (I know that sounds confusing, but trust me when I say I know what I am talking about!)  Anyways, I was reading a post over at Jack Sh*t today and it's a GREAT one!  Thanks again Jack for the slap in the face!!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

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Hoping you all enjoy your day with your family and friends!!! Bless you all from my family to yours!

Current Weight: Week Sixteen

165.6 (-.6)

Well that's four weeks in a row that I have lost something, so I guess that's a reason to celebrate!  They are small losses, but losses none the less! I know the key for me is exercise.  'Nuf said.

Friend Makin' Monday: TV Shows

What's on your DVR?  Or what are your favorite TV Shows?

Right now on our DVR is a large number of shows!  LOL! Some for DH, some for me, and of course some for Little Miss Sunshine!  I'll make a list of them by person:

Dear Husband

1. Dr. Who

2. Mythbusters

3. Stargate

4. Family Guy

5. The Simpsons

6. American Dad

Little Miss Sunshine

1. Curious Gerorge

2. Wonder Pets

3. Scooby-Doo

4. Super Why

Me

1. Dancing with the Stars 

2. Super Nanny

3. The Little Couple

4. Desperate House Wives

Those are all that is on our DVR right now, minus a rouge show or movie here or there.  There are a ton of other shows that I watch, as well as shows that DH and I watch together. I feel like boring you all with the details, so here you go:

Me

1. Glee

2. Grey's Anatomy

3. Private Practice

4. The Office

Shows DH and I watch together

1. House, MD

2. Biggest Loser

3. Sanctuary

4. Fringe

5. Warehouse 13

And there you have it! What shows do you like to watch????

Current Weight: Week Fifteen

166.6 (-8.)

Well this is where I was at the beginning of October.  How pathetic that it has taken over a month to get back here.  I am just not in the groove with it. One day at a time right?  I am going to break down each week and set mini goals for myself! This weeks mini goal is to drink all my water!  I've got my big ol' WW cup sitting next to me and I am ready to go for the day!

Current Weight: Week Fourteen

167.4 (-.6)

Its a little loss, but it a loss!!! I am so happy to say that I have stayed OP today as well! This is the first completely OP day I have had in WEEKS! YAHOO!