10 Day Challenge: seven wants

Seven wants, in no particular order:

1. I want to be a healthy weight.  I've got some great curves, if I do say so myself, but being of the weight I currently am I don't see them the way I want them to be.  

2. To pay off my car and get it out of my ex-husbands name; one more tie to sever.

3. For my daughter to grow up with two parents who have a healthy, co-parenting relationship; nothing more, nothing less.

4. To get my finances in some what semblance of order. 

5. To RUN!  I miss running so badly; every time I see some lucky person running the bug bites me. I miss it so much that I am contemplating getting up crazy early a couple of mornings a week to run before work before the boyfriend leaves for work so I know my daughter is safe.

6. To follow through with things, in general. I get all these "great ideas" to do things, I get all pumped to do them, and then............. 

7. To be SUPER WOMAN!  I want to be an amazing mom, an amazing girlfriend, an amazing daughter, an amazing teacher, an amazing friend.......  That's not asking too much of myself is it?

10 Day Challenge: eight fears

I started this "challenge" back in March of 2012 and as you can see I was so studious and finished it - NOT.  I have been thinking a lot lately about many items in my life that I have started and never followed through with.  I hate thinking about these many unfinished things and feeling like I've failed and let myself down some how.  Its really a weird feeling knowing that I put so much of myself into so many other people in my life (my daughter, my friends, the children I teach, etc), yet I have not found the balance to take care of me too.  Its time that I push myself to do so and so with out any further adieu....

 

Eight of my fears (in no particular order):

1. Being stuck in an elevator.  Yep, each and every time I ride in an elevator I imagine being stuck in it.  I would FREAK!!! I hate tight closed in spaces and spaces where there are no windows for me to look out of; so yeah, being stuck in an elevator would be REALLY bad for me.

2. Losing the amazing relationship I am in now.  He has no idea how much of a rock he is for me.  Going through a divorce has left me quite nervous at times and I worry often that the "other shoe is going to drop" and I am going to some how self sabotage / self destruct what I now have.

3. Losing the love of my daughter. Being a parent is no easy task, but being a single parent is even more challenging then I ever expected.

4.   Issues with my own health; if something serious were to happen to me heath wise I'd miss out so much on my beautiful daughter and all the future holds for her.

5. Not having enough money.  Lets face it - I became a preschool teacher because I am going to make millions of dollars said NO preschool teacher EVER!

6. Losing my parents; I am an only child with a very small family.  There are not many of us around still.  What will I do when they are gone?

7. Being over weight the rest of my life and becoming like my aunt.

8. Losing one of my preschoolers some how; we are vigilant like hawks in caring for our preschoolers, but I am still paranoid that one of these days one of them will slip away. 

10 Day You Challenge: nine loves

Ok, so obviously these are not going to be posted consecutively!  Here are nine of my loves!

1. My beautiful daughter!  She is 4 1/2 going on 22 and is simply amazing. I love the time I get to spend with her and cherish each precious moment as I watch her grow up right before my eyes.  She's independent, outgoing, and compassionate; she reminds me so much of myself!

2. Cheese, cheese, and more cheese!  Hehe... Yep I love cheese!

3. Running! I love the rhythmic quality of it and the fact that I truly have to focus on myself as I do it.  Just wish I was able to do it more.

4. My incredible friends and family. The last year and 1/2 has been a real struggle for me to stay here in reality and keep functioning.  My divorce has really done a number on me mentally and physically; I am so glad its almost over.

5. Blue Moon Belgian White.  Don't think that I drink all the time, but this is certainly a new favorite of mine! Love the fact that its unfiltered and has an orange taste to it!! So yummy!  What's your favorite beer?

6. Reading.  Reading is so calming and soothing for me.  I love getting lost in a good book! Right now I am reading the Dexter series!  What are you reading?

7. The Walking Dead.  I am so addicted to this show. A friend's son told me about it a while back and then another friend more recently told me about it. I gave it a try a few weeks ago and I am hard core addicted!!! It has taken over my Sunday nights!!!!  

8. Photography.  I am not very good at it, but I like to shoot a ton of pics!  I have a Nikon D-40 and a few different lenses to play with. Maybe one day I'll get serious about it and really learn how to use it.

9. Music.  Of any kind.  I love getting into the beat as well as the lyrics.  I often equate times of my life and memories with songs; kind of like having my own personal sound track to my life!

10 Day You Challenge: ten secrets

I found this fun little challenge over at Cigar Heiress and like her I have been slack in my blogging lately so I thought this might get me up and going again.  This seems like it might be fun!

The first thing I have to post is ten secrets.

1. The movie Signs freaks me out! I LOVE horror, suspense, and gory films, but for some reason that movie gives me the creeps. I've only watched it once and have NO desire to ever again.

2. I am a sucker for cheese.  Any kind!

3. I tend to get nervous being the one to make the "first move" in relationships.  It makes me so nervous it almost paralyzes me.  I have to do a lot of self talking to get myself beyond that!

4. I tend to eat and eat and eat when I am stressed.  I do it when no one is around and no one can see me.  Nothing satisfies me when I am in one of those moods.

5. If my house is a mess and I have company coming over, I tend to throw all the clutter in a box to get it out of the way and deal with it another day.

6. I think Justin Bieber is a cutie pie and when I was running I had a few of his songs on my playlist!

7. I had such a HUGE crush on Christian Slater when I was younger! WHOA!  Pump up the Volume is one of my favorite movies to this very day!

8. I secretly wish I had a slamming body like Jillian Michaels or someone like that.  Never going to happen!

9. I wish I had not given up playing the guitar as a kid. It was something I really enjoyed and still have my guitar from then!

10. I sometimes wished I lived in a warmer climate!

Phew, that was hard to think of 10!! Okay, who is with me??? C'mon peoples!!! PLAY ALONG!